rush last Christmas vacation

that was an awesome tiring days.. bakit? December 21 2012 ngtravel kami pauwing manila with my twin. sobrang hassle kasi madami kaming dalang damit, aside from that ehh 3 baggage ata ang dala namin, so mega bitbit ever kami ang gaganda pa naman ng get up namin tapos mega bitbit lang pla kami. haha! from laguna sa makati muna kami tumuloy, kumain kami ng lunch sa teriyaki boy sa magallanes (unfortunately wala kaming pics XD) so first time ko kumain dun, medyo madami inorder haha! busog much! XD next stop pahinga muna dahil at 5pm pupunta na kaming bulacan kasi december 22 may pupuntahan kaming kasalan dun,, so nagpahinga muna kami pero bumili muna ako ng affinitea, my favorite milk tea ever. so ayun 4pm dumiretso muna kaming TRINOMA, first time ko din dun haha ang ganda ng rooftop nila, XD hindi pa nauupload yung pics ehh. sa trinoma kumain naman kami sa Classic Savory, ok i admit ulit, first time ko ulit to. nagorder kami ng half chicken at ng lomi with macaroni salad at seafood salad, haha ubos din naman ehh that was our dinner na din. :P December 22, 2012 kasalan moment na. first time ko din umattend ng formal na kasalan, mega ever problema kami sa susuotin kasi baka hindi appropriate sa pupuntahan namin, so nung araw ng kasal ehh naenjoy naman namin kasi we really don't care na sa sasabihin ng iba all we care is the food XD ang sasarap, plus sa hotel pa yung reception kaya enjoy lalo na dun sa grand piano part ng hotel, that was my dream to sit there and play a song for God, and it did happened! :D an awesome experience.

thanks na rin sa paiinvite samin ng friend ko at pinatuloy pa nila kami sa bahay nila for that wedding, sobrang nakakahiya kasi very hospitable ang family nila plus nakikita yung love nila sa isa't isa especially sa parents nung friend ko(kay tita myrna at tito):D an awesome family full of love and peace and vibes ko sakanila, wala akong masabi sa kanila they're amazing :D May the Lord really bless them all the more. :D December 23,2012 eto naman yung haggard sa byahe pauwing taguig from bulacan pa! kasi pupunta daw kaming star city na nauwi sa MOA, hahaha! enjoy na din naman, first time ko ulit(hindi sa moa ha!)kasama mga tito at tita ko with my cousins na makukulit haha. first time ko sa bump car! XD at my age yes i've never played in a bump car, never, that was the first time and i really enjoyed it. XD

after ng bump car we went straight at wowowheels, enjoy din yung ride na to haha XD

then after ng mga rides na yan ehh picture ever naman ang drama namin, XD kung saan saan na kami ngpicture taking..

so after ng matinding lakaran, paglalaro, at picture taking nauwi kami sa pagkagutom XD we went to RACKS(my first time again) resto yun, sobrang sarap ng pagakain nila, ayoko lang ng bbq ribs nila amoy curry, :( and i hate it, pero masarap yung fish fillet nila at yung garlic dip :D pati yung chicken nila :D an awesome experience talaga haha! :D

let's move on na, yeah nakakapagod yan :D our last stop. MARKET MARKET and SERENDRA! December 24 2012 another awesome moment ito, nagpunta kaming market market at naglaro sa time zone then sa sbarro kami kumain, ang sarap ng pizza!! at baked city nila hahaha! awesome! :D

then after that, picture taking naman sa serendra XD ang ganda talaga dun, second time ko na dun :P nagpunta na kami sun last october 2011 nung birthday namin ng dearest twin ko :D that's it! that's how it end :D

something to share

i have lot of things to share and i really dont know where to start. first, my thoughts about my relationship with God, im not being proud or boastful here but i want you to learn from my experiences. to start the story, i started believing God when i was 17 that was 3 years ago April 2009. i received Him and started following Him. when i was 15, I've got a lot of questions and everything's so vague. I do asked God "Why I experienced thing like this and that" "why is He allowing things to happen either good or bad" and many more.. such questions that were hard to answer. i red the bible before i go to bed and even prayed yet i don't understand what was it really mean. i also tried to commit a suicide and end up my life 3x, Yes i am. I'm longing for a love.. a love that i've never felt from the beginning. i was so desperate that time. i have no friends and no one to turn to. i used to be in my room and release all the pain, the hurts and i hurt myself because i feel like im nothing just a speck of dust existed that no one recognize. I'm an emo, i express all these through music because i thought this could help yet somethin' is missing i didn't know what it was but im pretty sure i needed something. From then on i started hating and blaming God and quit reading the bible and praying to God. My life was a thrash a mess. My life stopped revolving everything's went wrong. I don't have a good family, my parents separated when i was only 11 and later restored their relationship few months later for our best they said but i didn't feel the love anymore. I joined a fraternity just to feel that i belong, that i am a precious one. there i experienced how it was when the paddle gets into my legs a several hits from it makes me feel weak that really huts i got bruises for several days to and endured the pain just to be in them. Later, i realized, that wasn't a real family, they aren't a real friend too. I quit. i do also learned how to smoke and to get drunk at my young age, though i have had physical problems i just ignored it and continue drinking and smoking with my so called friends but they aren't my real friend too! they weren't there for me when i needed them they offered only happiness for a while but not for eternity. but atleast i didn't tried a heroine! hahaha! :D thereafter... i started praying to God. my classmate when i was a freshman invited me to her church but i was able to attend their church once then never again. i started seeking God.. Praying that someday I too will become a Christian too, serving Him. Until i heard again the gospel when my churchmates now a days went to our house and shared to us the good news of restoring what was broken, healing the pain and the most is the never ending Love that God was offering. That was life changing. From impure, i felt like im pure and being made whole again. From pain i am overjoyed and i feel the security from God. lastly, now i am being loved by God. Yes, i am fixed, pure and whole. I may have these dark pasts but now they are my precious testimony on how God changed my life. i thought there was no family at all but i found it all in the hands of God. now i don't smoke, i don't drink, i do not belong to any fraternity. I am now sharing the good news i received to others and passing it on to them. with my God, my life was restored and now i am an instrument of God sharing the restoration and love i've found in God. To God be the Glory forever and ever Amen! i am not ashamed with this because God has a purpose and a plan for everything. Everything happened for a reason and i thank Him for allowing these things to happen coz without this i may not be standing infront of everyone proclaiming His Word and how He'd changed my life. I now belong to the family of God privileged to be His daughter and called to His purposes. I still want to share you something amazing about God but the this is not enough. before leaving my page i challenge you to pray just for a sec and accept God. He can't promise us a good life while were here on earth but God's love and grace is enough for us to live in this corrupt world. Believe in God believe in your heart that God can save you and can give you another life...for eternity. :) pray and ask God too. :)

sandbags

i have no one to share my burdens. im afraid that they may not listen. na baka pagalitan o hindi nila ako maintindihan. i have lots of friends and companions pero i think none of them will understand and listen to me. gusto ko lang naman ng makikinig sakin. im willing to be rebuked pero not at this point. gusto ko muna maglabas ng sama ng loob, ng burdens. gumising ako this morning with those sandbags in my heart. i feel like im about to explode kung hindi ko sya irerelease. yes, im being emotional. gusto ko kasing magconfess. i want to talk to God and say these things. -na hindi ako consistent at ngpapaintimate sa relationship ko sakanya -im lacking of faith, sa dami ng pinagagawa samin sa school ehh naiisantabi ko na ang God. nawawala ako sa focus (mat 6:33 at Hebrews 12:2) -na masyado akong nagpabaya sa relationship ko with God yes, i want to release these things. pero natatakot ako sa mga sasabihin sa akin ng leader ko at ng mga taong gusto ko sanang kausapin. i need help. nahihirapan din kasi ako sa sitwasyon ko. lagi akong lack of time ang dami kasing school stuffs. gusto ko na ngang magdrop ng subjects kasi di ko na kaya. araw araw akong puyat at hindi kumakain ng maayos. araw araw akong may hinahabol na deadlines at mga requirements only to find out na lahat ng ito ay chasing before the wind. nkakalimutan ko na ang identity ko kay God. im too obsessed about my studies, too anxious. hindi ko na naalala ang God at ang relationship ko sakanya, im too busy with my own stuffs. yes, blame me for being faithless.. i admit, im wrong. dahil sa bigat ng mga ito di ko na kaya,i prayed na.. nahihiya akong kausapin ang God dahil alam kong may mga pagkakamali ako. i have no one to talked to eh. so babalik talaga ako kay God. very basic pero may impact talaga. alam mo yun? while talking to God ehh akala ko mga unbelievers lang ang hindi naniniwala kay God, pati pala mga Christians eh pedeng maging faithless, in my case ehh faithless din talaga ako. tapos sabi ko kay God ehh pagalitan na nya ako.. bago buklatin yung bible ko i really prayed. ready na kako ako para sa discipline nya, tapos binasa ko yung Genesis 26, usual QT ko, tapos naiyak nalang ako sa mga comforting words nya. di ko maintindihan ang God, ako na nga ang nagkamali tapos super passionate at unfailing pa rin ng God. sobrang bait ng God. unexplainable. yung mga ginawa ko? di deserving ang God na marecieve ang ganung treatment from me. hindi ko dapat sya nilalast sa priority ko. He must be the first. afraid pa ba ako? no. im ready kasi alam kong God is with me, yes, i failed but God will never leave me. (heb 13:5) now? LESSON LEARNED. im ready for the discipline and the consequence. "Do not be afraid, for I am with you;" Genesis 26:24 "if you can't find the right way, then go back from the start." THANK YOU LORD FOR OPENING MY BLIND EYES. (Mat 6:33, Genesis 24, Heb 12:2, Eph 6:6-7)

perstaymer

eto yung day DECEMBER 6, 2012, this is the day when i first joined an essay writing contest. :D dahil first time ko, sobrang sumakit ang kamay ko. haha! Im not that too excited kasi yung totoo ehh wala ako sa mood sumali nun. pero nung nasa room na ako ehh nosebleed pala ang lola mo. naubusan ako ng english ehh. hahaha! I really dont know what to say or to write. ayun. hahaha! nagpicture taking nalang kami! XD another thing na nakapagpasaya ng araw ko ehh educ day kasi namin ito, first time ko rin to.. first time kong magcelebrate at umattend ng mga gantong program sa school. in my type ehh hindi ako social person so instead of attending ehh mas gusto ko pang matulog nalang sa bahay o umattend ng church services, pero ang masaya kasi dito ngayon ehh motivated akong pumasok at sumama sa mga classmates ko. eto rin yung sem na wala pa akong absent ever! XD straight! sipag bang pumasok. hahaha! salamat sa mga makukulit kong classmates at naeencourage akong pumasok kahit sa mga programs.. :D last one thing ehh first time ko din makita ang sarili ko sa freedom wall. i know who he is. dinrawing nya ako at may nakalagay na note na "YOU AND GOD IS MY INSPIRATION, THANK YOU SO MUCH" kinilig ba ako? hahahahaha! sino bang hindi kikiligin dun ehh nakadrawing yung mukha mo dun katabi ng drawing nya sa sarili nya tapos dedma lang? hahaha! yes nakakakilig but i know na God is still writing the best love story for me. natouch ako pero i do know how to handle things smoothly. he's a nice guy, Christian din naman sya pero im looking sa pagaaral ko muna at hindi sa pagibig. first time ko kasi. :D

a break :D

all of us rather many of us desiring to have a break, maybe in a relationships, in schools or in work that caused us to feel stressed. at this point, i really want a break, a rest. I just want to spend some time alone without any problems or burdens inside my head running rapidly without ceasing. i think im gonna explode. One day i asked a friend to be with me just for a day and spend time together, guess what, an ordinary day turned out to an AWESOME DAY eer!!! that day, i've experienced a lot of things i wasn't able to do wayback. (PS: nakakaubos ng english ehh) my friend and i went to Star City an amusement park in Manila, that was fun! kewl! this was an awesome tiring day. we rode in a different "breath-taking" rides wherein i felt like my heart and soul jumped out of nowhere. hahahaha! i lost all my mind and energy there. hahaha!

a very unforgettable moment, nahaggard ako dun eh! hahaha! :D right after that ehh, nagpabili ako ng domo hat. haha sa sobrang tuwa ehh nagpapic ako with that hat, i really like domo-kun na cartoon ehh

dahil sa pagod ehh haggard din talaga, xempre hindi kami nagpapigil dun, hala sugod pa kami sa ayala triangle to watch lights and sound show.

overall eh PRAISE GOD that day talaga! an awesome experience. hahaha i thank God sa buhay ng friend ko na un at sinamahan nya talaga ako. :)) though i feel like those responsibilities and stuffs were hunting me there in manila ehh atleast that one day made my day special. THANK YOU LORD! :D